Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Anticipate

I have a question, a small request—I like to reason, just a favor, just permission. I want to ask it. The forces that be, do not. Which is why they’ve forced their shriveled little hands (because this is how I imagine The Fates, as gnarly old women in tattered rags, constantly cackling at me from above and pointing with thin gray fingers) and pushed a meeting from Friday, to yesterday, to today to tomorrow.

And, as if they know that I really want the answer to be positive, they’ve thrown in the second straight week of black rain this May.

As if anyone who addresses this request (or any others floating out there) needs a reason to be in a bad enough mood not to grant it. So everyone is grumbling along, slipping in rain-slicked lobbies, muddying leather shoes, soaking their morning papers, and prepared—simply, ready—to say no/bad/wrong.

Even me. Even as I sport a spring skirt and a forced smile. Because with that extension without expiry, I’m starting to think so. Of this idea, this light bulb that was just positively brilliant last week. Fading fast, that confidence could fizzle and pop at any moment, leaving only a scorched ring and bits of clink in the glass. Swimming hard against what I do need.

I need to radiate positive energy and warming rays. I need to ooze yes. Though I anticipate a no, I need a yes in return.

10 comments:

ThursdayNext said...

I like your personification of the Fates, K. Don't take no for an answer.

Cheetarah1980 said...

totally off topic, but your man took you to see Wu Tang for Valentine's day? I'm speechless! That is beyond awesome. I love GFK, Raekwon, RZA, GZA, Method Man, and company. CREAM was my jam back in 8th grade. Okay, I just had to get excited over that for a minute.

D.T. said...

I agree with thursdaynext. Dont take no for an answer. Keep on fighting for that yes, for that wish, for that dream. By giving up, it's like you're saying you dont deserve it...so there's only one question ya gotta ask yourself...do you deserve it?

Jack's Shack said...

Tenacity is a virtue.

Just me said...

swimming against current requires great determindation and focus.

Judging by the post, it sounds like you are.

But forces of nature is compelling.

Whatever the outcome, we'll be here.

so urm update?
Are we rejoicing or giving ya a group hug?

Well just for the effort,

*hugs*

Oob said...

Determination can further progress far more than talent. Keep at it!

K said...

The update: the questions was answered with a tentative yes!

Who knows if it will actually work, but at least the process is in motion. Wooooooo! (for now)

Though I think I was stammering a bit when I asked, could have used all you guys there with me :)

Sober In the City said...

Damn the rain!

For what it is worth, you get a yes from me.

Camille said...

Si si si!

Grant said...

Yesterday and today, the sun came out and it is very much spring like weather, so I would think that the fates heard you and answered your request in a postive manner.